Some days I walk outside and think "Is this really my life!" Today I sat inside and thought "Is this really my life :( "
I'm so done. What does that mean? I'm not totally sure. You could call it homesickness. You could say that I need to get out more. You could say that I need to stop whining (it doesn't seem to work when I say it to myself). You could say that this isn't the time or place to vent...everyone just skips to the photos of Sam anyway.
I'll say that the highlight of my week was laughing with my sister on the phone tonight. I'll say that it's getting harder to entertain Sam for the 17 hours that my poor husband works everyday. I'll say that I wear a sweater when it's 17 C out and force Sam into his winter jacket. I'll say that I don't let Sam play in puddles for fear of the disgusting things dissolved within. I'll say that I chose not to walk in the 'rain' today when it was barely misting. I'll say that I just want to pack it in and move home and get on with life!
I miss my family. I miss my friends. I miss my car. I miss the snow. I miss fresh air. I miss common courtesy. I miss my bed. I miss Lee's chinese food and Pizza Twice. I miss my family (worth the second mention). I'm ready to come home.
I just made a graph showing how discontented I am at the moment...it wouldn't upload...go figure. Great, now I'm hearing Eeore's voice when I type! No more Winnie the Pooh for us!
I just looked at the clock. I've just wasted an hour on this stupid machine...I should be knitting...I just got new yarn today (thanks, Tami!).
Here's a pic of Sam with his NASA space shuttle (Mike, a friend from our UNB days is working not to far from here as a post doc for a NASA affiliate). And there's Sam at a playdate yesterday (thanks again to Bonnie for dragging us around!)...
OK, maybe life isn't so bad...
6 comments:
OH MY....go buy a globe and mail news paper...maybe there is something there that Adam overlooked....in just a SHORT week you'll be on a plane..
yep - after a year you've settled into a routine and gotten your life settled to the point where its business as usual. at which point you say - but i don't want to live here!
you could move along to #2 of 4 - that would distract you!
We miss you too, Erin! :(
HUGS!!!!
I so so so understand how you feel, since we were just there!
There is hope. There light at the end of the tunnel. J hasn't started yet but being home now has made it all worth it. Even though we have nothing and we are starting from scratch all the yuck of living down there has been worth it. Promise.
Hang in there! Make sure to call if you need to vent to someone that was there. Nothing NOTHING can describe the life a post doc's wife leads!
HUGS
aww... I wish you loved closer! Hang in there and try to think of all the blessings- that's what I do when I get stressed at work. You sound like my sister since she moved out west- she still wants to move home- her husband works or is at school all the time and so it's only her and their 1 yr old. I bet Christmas is the hardest time for feeling homesick. Hang in there Sunshine!
Meri
Hey Erin- I'm Meredith's sister... :) I read your blog cause your little guy is a little older than Caden so I like to see what's ahead of us! And know you're not alone. I get homesick too and sometimes I feel just like you. Trying to entertain a little one, feeling like you are all alone- it's hard. But know that all you are doing is for good and I hope that you have a great Christmas and feel refreshed once you see your family. :)
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